Ho Ho Ho 12/20/2009
 
Ho Ho Ho, hope you all have a lovely Christmas, if you celebrate it, and a great holiday season wherever you are.  Thanks for the support and comments, pro and con over the last year, it’s been a nice ride and I hope my columns for 2009 made you smile, think, and did not frustrate you too much. Thought I’d share my new found appreciation of Christmas with you in the hope that it might spark similar awakenings among some of you who may have the same “condition” I had been suffering from for almost four decades.
Every year around Christmas I would go into an inexplicable depression of sorts. Most years I would be able to “ignore” the depression with distractions of the event of Christmas and the accompanying activities. However, on the odd occasion when I would spend Christmas on my own, or alone with a significant other, I’d literally spend the day (Christmas Day) alone in my room with a good book.

The very next day I would snap out of the depression just as quickly and easily as it had occurred; much to the anger and confusion of the significant others. I think I’ve actually ended more than one relationship on Christmas Day over the years and when I think back on it, I honestly don’t think there was a valid reason for it. Anyway the point is I finally discovered the reason for the depression a few years ago when my mom told me about her pregnancy with me. I was born four days after Christmas and when she was carrying me, she had to endure an extremely traumatic domestic situation with my dad just before I was born. It really was an intensely stressful time for her and clearly that stress and trauma found its way through the placenta and into my psyche. I’ve since read up about the phenomenon and its well- documented that the foetus reacts to its surrounds while forming in the womb. Anyway, since I realised the cause of my depression it was really easy for me to beat it and rise above it and the last couple-a Christmases have been fun and joyous as I guess it should be. I’m really looking forward to this one too. Well, just thought this might spark something among any of you who find yourself with inexplicable mood swings around certain times of the year. Could well be about something that happened while you were under construction… Have an awesome Christmas and a safe holiday season.
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